You may be a Lymie...

....if you didn't even realize that you wrote the previous post.
I got home from my trip and wondered what everybody was commenting on, went and checked it out and had a little surprise. haha...nice.

I'm sorry to you all who have been wondering what is going on and how the trip went and all. I am home and just trying to recover. And I've been in a really bad head space and not felt like writing or had the clarity.

I'll be back with a big update, soon hopefully!

Thank you all for the prayers during my trip! I literally felt carried on the wings of prayers and love.
So thank you!!

D.C. trip - part 1

Well, technically, we are in Baltimore, but that is not the point.

So, my sister and I flew in Monday and had a surprisingly uneventful flight/s.
Yes, I was sick, and felt pretty terrible and in a lot of pain, but I was able to do it!

Getting through security and to our gate, a VERY different story!
They had no idea what to do with me and all my medical liquids.
Talk about utter chaos!!

But the entire day I just felt carried on the wings of prayers and so much love!
I know a LOT of people were praying and thinking about me and I really felt them.

Now today, well yesterday by now but Tuesday, I expected to complete crash and but that kind of extreme fatigue/exhaustion where I can hardly move a single muscle, as this is what usually happens.

BUT, no. I keep having these big adrenaline rushes.
Like when you hear some really bad news and the blood drains out of all your limbs and you feel cold and half hyper.
Yeah, that.

I'm exhausted but still "going" (if you can consider tiny little trips to the bathroom and sitting half way up in bed typing out a post "going"!).
I just keep having these rushes. One after the other.

I'm having a really hard time keeping anything down.
I've tried to eat 2 or 3 times today and end loosing it each time.
But what is unusual about that? Nothing. Very normal for me.

I just wanted to sort of document how this trip is going and I know a lot of people who are excited to hear all about it so I am going to try to give you at least a little update each day.
Not promising, as the crash is likely to come eventually, but I'll try.

I'm getting another rush right now, it is 1:55am.
Hmmm....crazy body.

Sitting here realizing that I have to be ready to leave in 4 hours to leave for my appt, I'm starting to get nervous.
This is actually becoming a reality.
Wow.

OH! I had visitors tonight. My cousin and his wife and kids came to see us here at the hotel. It was tough, with the noise and stimulation and everything, but I managed. YAY!
**Thank you Doug and Dinah! Also, the pie was good, its my favorite!!  ;)**

Its nice to be able to see family while I'm on the east coast!

Ok, the blood still hasn't returned to my feet and aparently not my brain either, I am totally fogging up.
And my mom is snoring like crazy. Annoying.

Love Languages and Spiritual Gifts...

So since the beginning of time, my love language has been touch.
But recently I've really been questioning that.

Over the last 2 years I've really been into giving other people gifts.
Which I found so strange since that wasn't my love language.

But,
I think it actually is my love language.
I think Lyme has changed it from touch to gifts.

When the slightest touch can hurt so much.
When you have bad social anxiety.
You don't crave/need that touch.

However, gifts are something I can appreciate SO much more now.
And I love give!

I never thought something like this could change your love language, but obviously it can.
Maybe it will only be a temporary thing?
Until I am better?? I don't know.

But interestingly enough, I think my strongest spiritual gifts is giving.
This is so interesting as it ties into my love language.

These are times where I wonder why God doesn't bless those who enjoy giving so much, great wealth.
I can think of SO many things I could do and people I could help, if I had the money.

But for now, I work with what I have.
And in the meantime, I think I drive my sisters a little crazy taking stuff to the post office to be sent out to all the people I love!

Thank you sisters!!!

**So what is YOUR love language and or spiritual gift? I would love to hear from you all!!**

Traveling to D.C.

In 2 weeks I will be in D.C. at the Jemsek Specialty Clinic.
In search of some answers.
In search of a better long term treatment plan.

I have so much hope that I find answers and solutions to some issues.
I have complete faith that I will.

Its going to be big though.
Flying for the first time while so sick.
Gone 8 days.
Just huge!

But I will make it.
I'm a tough cookie.
And I get to see my Grandpa and Grandma for a few days!!
Can't wait.